Missing my best friend

It's been 3 weeks. 3 weeks since I've found out my best friend Molly passed away unexpectedly. She was doing what nature intended us woman to do, bring children into this world. This is so unfair, especially to one of the most beautiful vibrant woman I have ever known. Let me tell you a little about our friendship, as it was so incredibly special to me. The moment I met Molly in our late teens (18/19ish) I was drawn to her. She was a people magnet. I knew from the moment I met her she was going to be a great friend. We bonded, hanging out all the time going on family vacations with each other, just being worry free and enjoying life. She showed me how to see things with a positive spin no matter what the situation. She made me feel like a good person, she gave me confidence. We were there for each other through some major ups and some serious downs. I was in a really bad place after a terrible break up about 6 years ago. I felt so worthless, and not knowing what to do with my life, I was in a deep depression to the point I stopped caring about myself. I called Molly and she invited me over to vent and make me feel better, little did she know her kindness and compassion kept me from doing the unimaginable that night. She gave my soul hope and told me I'm worth so much more, and ment it. Like I acually held on to her genuine words, they were as real as they came. This is an example of how much I loved this girl, ill always love her. I love the woman she became, the wife she was, the amazing mom who gave it all. Brian came back into her life and all of a sudden she was complete... They were like 2 puzzle pieces that could never be separated, I love him for that. He made an amazing woman even more amazing. Now let's add Olivia into the mix, O my talk about Mini Mollz (as I called her). I look at that little girl and see her moms personality and everything! Keep singing little one!
My husband came home 3 weeks ago to bare the news to his 8 month pregnant wife that her best friend has passed. Not only was Molly my friend but his too.... She was family, her family is like our family. This was the hardest thing he ever had to do. He was brave and strong. He lost his friend too.
That moment I felt like time just stopped... Like it was some awful dream I was going to wake up from. At times I still feel this way. I cry every day and think about her. I catch myself going to text her or call her.... Then pull back realizing the reality that is real life. Molly was a woman with numerous friends and many who would call her their best friend. She was mine, and there is a huge part of my heart that went with her. What keeps me going is knowing that she would want me to be strong, for my daughter and husband. Even though she never met my daughter I know she loves her. Gabriella will carry her name as a middle name, and I will make sure she knows all about her Auntie Mollz. She will grow up with her cousins Olivia, Theresa and Logan. I will keep our promise of raising our children together for sure. I am incredibly lucky to have an amazing support system like my husband who let's me cry when I need too and is emotionally there for me even though he is just as sad. I'm not good at putting my feelings into words like this... Because I acually have so much more I'd love to say. I just want to know Molly is at peace and is watching over all of us especially her family and friends. She was simply amazing. The world misses you Mollz. I love you.